what do you see in the next few paragraphs. haha make a guess. look for a familar pattern / number / meaning?

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i just want you to stay with me forever.
3:39 PM
Thursday, June 23

*you're the sweet caramel syrup in my chocolate bar.

it's been long since i added an entry in this blog. well. HAPPY FATHER"S DAY TO ALL THE PAPAS IN THIS WORLD.

[you would never want me back]

working today was FUNN. worked with marcel mama gladys jardine paul hilary val fareed and err i think that's all.

i want to play ice. serious. but i cannot ice skate. that's the sad part. i need skates too. shall start planningbut i need to lose weight HEHE.

[why won't you say you love me too]

i just want you to stay with me forever.
10:40 PM
Sunday, June 19

* i crush you

haha im supposed to be watching my cinderella story now. chad is so cute! haha.. anyway i just came back from hockey. it was really fun!

bronson is super duper zai can!! haha ryan don't know what singing true. do you think he's cute? haha nah he's hair style sucks. upclose cut away hair better.

haha what's my problem im in need of a crush. haha.. nicky also very fun to play with. haha bah .. madness la. ok nvm my cinderella stroy now more impt. haha buhbye!

i got a blue black from albert upload another day. haha i got back some of my results really disappointed with my chinese. oh well i deserved it. haha.. chad!!

i just want you to stay with me forever.
12:25 AM
Thursday, May 19

*you got me started

haha i've uploaded new pics. haha me and dawn rather. haha the names maybe the same but there are new pics in them for some .. not the past years one but ya haha

*iloveyou

i just want you to stay with me forever.
12:03 AM
Tuesday, May 17

*im falling in love with you

haha crew night rocked!! and i have a new blog!! live journal. haha ninetyonee.livejournal.com i think i will be still using this thou. only that some times update there sometimes here.
i have a multiply but i don't know how to use it [orangecow] haha

i just want you to stay with me forever.
11:51 PM
Sunday, May 15

*if i could turn back time.

wahaha waiting for dawn to come to my house now. mmx should we go and send shawn off? i think so ok later then go down bah.

tomorrow's crew night. haha. and imissyou.

im longing for your hug.

i just want you to stay with me forever.
3:51 PM
Friday, May 13

*imissyou

yea exams are over.haha but when i get my results back im going to cry.
tomorrow we're going fishing marcel called to tell me he can't make it. oh well. haha. i just hope you would go.

going to buy stuff with nadia tommorrow morning then meet stella and dawn then i think im coming home to put my stuff and change.

it only we both would make the first step.

you would never want me back.

i just want you to stay with me forever.
11:50 PM
Thursday, May 12

*im over you but im stuck on you

i've made my decision. or rather my heart haha. it was just a mistake a year ago and it still is now. im so going to fail my chinese physics amaths english. haha
my last paper is tomorrow!


you're like the sweetest candy on the top shelf when i was a kid. there but just out of my reach

im willing to take the risk as long as you are willing to give me another chance.

last night i saw a falling star.

and threw all cautions to the wind.

i said i really loved you.

i hoped a new love would begin.

guess that star. wasn't meant for me.

cause my wish never did come true.

so im sitting here.

all by myself.

wishing i was with you. [written by my darling partner]

i just want you to stay with me forever.
10:02 PM
Wednesday, May 11

* it all seems like a dream.

why does it always happen on the 10th?

bah.. next tuesday i got selections for under 17 but im all fat and wobbly now. cannot even remember how to play netball anymore. im having my physic paper tomorrow.

all i could do was think of you.

haha during my paper. ya your right. why am i doing this to myself.
who the hell are you to come in and out as you like.
like you always say [forget it].
im not some resort where you come and go like some big shot member.
haha im lame.

you appear all the time in my life. and him.. in my dreams.
have fun during your dinner.

three years time. my ktm.

four months time my goalie pad.

five months time my helmet.

six years time you in my memories.

when will it ever end.

i just want you to stay with me forever.
8:22 PM
Tuesday, May 10

timble of hope i should not take note of.

haha. i gave up study geo.so many chapters.
*you called me and gave me motivation. haha it was short spanned thou. haha.

really miss you thou. mmx or is it just a form of entertainment for myself HAHA. ijanij. haha. may god be with you.

10.10pm 9th may

YOU* made my day

=pp im talking to action now. HAHA.

he's full of shit. i saw him riding past on his super duper nice ktm! when i was walking out with stella and amanda.. haha cannot believe it la.

msg him to tell him i saw him then he said he did too. oh well and what im lucky cause he didn't ride out since apc.. mmmx.

bah sucks la.. it always happens want to forget but... can forget already then like that. aiya friends only what haha. im going to flunk my chinese left the whole thing blank here and there. die already.

=D

i just want you to stay with me forever.
2:02 PM
Monday, May 9

HAHA. im screwed! i got chinese and bio tomorrow and i haven't studied.

nadia is telling me stuff i have no cule aobut. haha so how. i have to go haha HAPPY MAMA'S DAY to all the mama's in the world haha!

and i just want to tell you i miss you so much and no amount of words and space will be able to store it.

i just want you to stay with me forever.
8:47 PM
Sunday, May 8

raow! zhen's going to call me.

haha she just called me haha.
haha we're bitching around. haha went to see houses today. haha zhen's such a BUM.

got one just across the hockey court. weehee and a super nice one at my school there! CHAD.

i just want you to stay with me forever.
10:48 PM
Saturday, May 7

oh my. go and watch house of wax!
super nice show. stella and zhen missed it.

iam falling in love with CHAD MICHAEL MURRAY.

haha trying to do my maths and chiniese now. im so bored! haah cannot go for hockey today! so i shall do my work and see if my mum allows me to go to skatesports later. haha.

i just want you to stay with me forever.
11:31 AM

bah. im confused. argh i hate seeing you online.
i want to talk to you but i can't.
why are you treating me like this.

imissyou

i just want you to stay with me forever.
9:45 PM
Wednesday, May 4

nanana im getting mixed up.
bla bla bla why is it so fugged up.
tatata my exams are screwed up.

why am i not bothered about my social studies.
weehee. history and why there were conflicts are so interesting.
wow.

i miss you. everything seems blurr right now.
nah need to concentrate on my studies. thanks for being there thou.
im going to be what you thought i would be. only much better.

i just want you to stay with me forever.
10:11 PM
Tuesday, May 3

HAHA. there's a change in situation. i live for no one but myself.
wahaha four months for me to lose weight! haha and i need to buck up on my studies.

i want to live in australia!

i just want you to stay with me forever.
6:08 PM

i want to break down and cry.

i love you. but i miss you. argh . i have to give up but i don't know how.

i can't help but my tears just keeep running down my face.
i would walk a thousand miles just to see you.

i cry myself to sleep.
i keep myself busy just to force you out of my mind.
it works.. till i walk down our memory lane alone in the middle of the night.
why can't i get another chance.
have you ever thought of how i felt.
have you ever loved me.

please let me know how you feel.

i just want you to stay with me forever.
10:19 PM
Monday, May 2

i miss you so much. if only i could let you know.

if you knew how much i loved you. would you come back to me.

im trying my best to forget you. not talking to you makes me miss you even more.

i love you. but no one know.

i just want you to stay with me forever.
10:36 PM
Saturday, April 30

oh my! haha im a total slacker.
i told my darling sardine that i was coming home to study and instead. haha i slept through.. but went down hockey court to look for joe to give him the goalie gear. haha. i really want my OWN goalie gears please. anyone want to help me look for some?

sighs i miss so many people which is pure madness haha. should i work or not. haha.. argh.. i want apc to come back! thou we didn't sleep much.. totally washed out. but i had so much fun. camping at vivian's house. looking at my beloved and all so wonderful goalies who made me forget about reality!
haha and now.. im left only with memories.haha he has lied to me again. i cannot believe it. oh well.

and i was in my own world of hockey that i neglected my friends! haha stella and dawn.. oh and today's my BESTIE'S birthday. i want to let her know that even thought things around us have changed i still love her so very much!

i miss dave and all! haha that's in my fantasy world and i miss * in my reality world haha

i just want you to stay with me forever.
11:31 PM
Thursday, April 28

oh my.. had my papeer today.
was too tired fell asleep half way. oh my.. sighs it's a sad day haha LUKE FIVEASH flew back to aussie today! i totally forgot to take a picture with him..

went sentosa with him ptath great britian people.. man.. haha luke looked so cute playing hockey.. marcel was teaching me how to play volleyball.. hah got all the signatures etc.. luke gave me his email! haha on his own accord! weehee got chinese tomorrow and i seriously didn't study!

fiveash. haha pthah gave me a jersey i had three from gb and gave one to mitchel weehee. but i want lukes!!

i just want you to stay with me forever.
10:15 PM
Monday, April 25

i miss you.i miss you. i miss you. i miss you.

i wish we would be together again.
if we do i hope we would be like the others.
make it known to everyone.
i can then express how happy im with you.

or rather was. nah. it's all a dream.

almost had you. wished you almost love me too.
i love the sweet sound of your voice.

ninetyone- MY JERSEY NUMBER haha

i just want you to stay with me forever.
10:43 PM
Tuesday, April 19

do you know you're being missed badly.

oh my went skatesports today.. all the wheels and mission stuff are all in! gosh i like this purple wheel alot! the small red one too! haha bah. miss wahidah complained about the netball board! she said it wasn't nice. .. oh whatever. now i have to print the c division and b divions list. how infair can. argh.

apc's coming.. oh my. so freaking scared!!

i just want you to stay with me forever.
7:43 PM

hello! haha thanks zhen! yea! long last she did my blog for me! she was feeling emo. =D
bah i played goalie today. haha sucked.. mst train harder. hope action will be free someday to do so. haha watch jill and sonia play florrball today. final score was 8-0 weehee. man jill run's like.. woosh!

haha I CHANGED MY JERSEY NUMBER! haha to ninetyone! my tag number for 2.4 was also ninetyone. haha... im scared for apc! later i let my team down how! bah supposed to call burn back. but im kinda lazy. haha. shall see how.

sighs. haha. im kinda lost. i have a maths paper tomorrow i hope i do well. didn't study. talking to chailert now. planning how to message a certain someone. haha listening to mr lonely! so cute. haha i really want to talk to you but somehow it seems impossible!

i just want you to stay with me forever.
10:01 PM
Sunday, April 17